Losing focus

This week has started with a massive 12 hour day at work, and no walking yesterday or today. The rest of the week promises to continue in the same ridiculous fashion. I had a productive Monday, and that's always a nice feeling, but unfortunately I seem to operate on a one on, one off basis...so generally if my Monday was super productive, my Tuesday will be full of faff. There is so much to do...and right now I can't work up any interest in any of it. So many urgent things to attend to. Yawn. 

I can feel my focus swaying dangerously on the weightloss front. I feel hopeless at the prospect of not being allowed all the treats that I would normally use to make me feel better. And the scales showed a gain yesterday morning - well no wonder really considering I probably went over the points on five out of seven days last week! Yesterday I went over again, and today hasn't started in the healthiest of ways (altho nothing to disastrous, just not my normal porridge). With so much going on at work I feel like I just want to give in, and I'm sick of trying to whip myself in to doing more, eating better, exercising, being focused at work, being responsive, responsible, when I just want to flake out and skive off work and go home and sleep after finishing a tub of Ben&Jerrys...Yeah we have a major case of toys out of pram here.

Must try and focus on the positives. 

1. Yesterday my boyfriend interrupted my work rant with a surprised "Oh! I can really see the weight difference in your face now!" A rude interruption I was quick to forgive :)

2. Also yesterday I found out my boss thought I'd acted brilliantly on Friday - and that made me laugh with disbelief since on Friday I was absolutely ready to kill him with my own two hands (and possibly a USB cable) - he was so infuriating!! I felt bad for being such a grumpy cow all of Friday but apparently my boss mistook that for dedication and efficiency...